This article won’t mention the name of the man that killed 26 people in Newtown, Connecticut. I refuse to remember his name. This is not his tragedy. Instead, I will remember the 6 adults and 20 children who lost their lives for no reason whatsoever.
I will remember Dawn Hochsprung, principal of Sandy Hook Elementary. I will remember Victoria Soto, 27, a third year, first grade teacher at Sandy Hook. I will remember Emelie Parker, aged 6, as I think of my own young children and hold back tears of thanks that they don’t have to know such terror or violence. I will remember Jesse Lewis, aged 6, and wonder why his beautiful smile was extinguished so prematurely. I will remember Mary Sherlach, school psychologist. I will remember Ana Marquez-Greene, aged 6, and shake back tears for what the world will have missed at her loss. I will remember Lauren Rousseau, and know that this teacher will be missed. I will miss every single one of these teachers, students, women, and children – those named here and those whose names are yet to come. I will miss them, Not because I knew them or because they touched my life, but because their lives were unfairly cut short by such a senseless act of violence.
I will hug my children that much closer tonight so that they can know that they are safe and loved.
There are so many reasons that I’m proud to live in California, and a few that make my stomach turn. I’ve used this blog to show my support for the rights of gay couples wanting to get married in California, and although I thought that I’d done my piece to help, seeing the press today brings tears of frustration to my eyes and renews the anger that I feel towards the majority of Californians that consider it acceptable to legislate discrimination. Where is their conscience?
Right now my biggest hope is that I won’t have to explain to my daughters that we live in an environment that discriminates against people because of the color of their skin, where they go to church or their sexual orientation. I hope that my daughters will know that all Americans share the same rights and privileges under law because we, as a country, have voted to maintain those rights. Ultimately, I hope that our “don’t ask, don’t tell” military will continue to defend those rights so that someday it might be possible for all world citizens to share those same rights. For now, I’ll tell them that how Connecticut does it is right and that California will catch up at some point in the future – hopefully sooner rather than later.